new year, new life

i went into this year with the utmost optimism. so many exciting things are ahead and i was absolutely positive that everything was going to be fantastic and work out flawlessly. we're only a month into the year and i feel like i've already had more opposition than i can take. the only things that are holding me together are my family, some of the best friends that a person could have and knowing that Heavenly Father will not give me more than I can handle. obviously He knows i'm a lot stronger than i think am. i've always been a strong believer that EVERY thing happens for a reason. while i might not like the way some things have turned out, i know that it is all for the best and in the end i will be such a stronger and happier person. it is definitely going to take a long time before i am completely ok but it hasn't even been a week and i can already see a huge improvement from where i was. all i can say is that when you have the faith to turn to the Lord for strength and comfort, even at the times where you think you deserve His help the least, He will bless you. but i know for a fact that through this experience, after a few life changes and some healing i will be an improved person.

on the bright side, i got to spend SO much time with my terrific sister and nephew this week. it is amazing what a child's spirit can do for you.